Cha-ching! Time for Change

God you make beautiful things out of us.  You make us new.  SO who am I to doubt what you tell us or ask us to do? You have the blue prints to our lives.  We are still being built, so why do we question the grand plan?  Why do we mess up our lives?  WE are the ones putting the cracks in the walls.  IF we just listened we would be made without any cracks.  SO who am I to think I am in control of my life? I don’t even know the plans you have for me…

                    You therefore have no excuse, you who pass judgement on someone else for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgement do the same things.  ~Romans 2:1

 

I get so mad at others judging me for who I am. I have started judging them for who they are.  I find flaws in others for no reason. Yet I don’t want them to do that to me. I have become the people I don’t like.  Time to change that!  I am no longer judgmental.  I am only going to let God judge others, for He knows their hearts.  Please, God, forgive me for what I have done!  I am a sinner that has messed up over and over.  I need you to save me from myself.  Make me into the Living Sacrifice You want me to be.  My life is Yours.  Take it and make it what You want. I am no longer in control, You are the One leading my days, words, and actions.

               That at the name of Jesus every knee shall bow, in heaven and on earth and under the Earth. ~Phil. 2:10

I should be on my knees every day at the feet of Jesus.  I should be humble at the feet of Jesus.  I need to bow my head and listen to God everyday.  Time to start my days in a different way. No more old Kaylee. Today is the start of a new and better Kaylee!

           IF I WANT TO SEE THE CHANGE, I HAVE TO BE THE CHANGE I WANT TO SEE.

 I always say I am going to make a change in the world and in the church, but how can I do that if I”m not willing to change myself.  I can lead a change if I’m just like the people I’m trying to change.  I have to be different.  That difference has to come from God. The blind can’t lead the blind, so God, please open my eyes.  I am going to make the changes that are needed, so that I can help make the changes the world and church needs.

Open doors.

The Methodist motto is really good.  I used to make fun of it saying it’s “Closed hearts, closed minds, closed doors”.  How much does that reflect  on me? I had the closedness.  I need to live by the openness.  If we all do that then the church will thrive.  But because we do have the closedness, we are ineffective. Everyone needs to be open to everyone.  It’s time to live by that motto.  My heart is open, my mind is open, my door is open for everyone.  Time to show the change that is needed to survive!

I found the deep reason I have for my frustration and all with myself and the church.  I have been holding this in for so long! I have been ashamed of my faith. I have been ashamed to let people see me love God.  I didn’t want people to think I was that cookie  cutter mold they have on me.  I was determined not to let them.  Turns out, I”m the one who lost…I am not faithful because of my dad, but because God is in ME! My faith is my own, no one else’s.  I am no longer ashamed to be a daughter of God’s.  I will do whatever God has for me! No matter where that takes me.  I can only follow the blueprint God has for me.  Thank you, God, for being patient with me!

God, You are doing amazing work on our team! We have had so much growth in the past few days than in the pat month.  Tonight while worshiping together I have seen You work through everyone to others.  A s a team, we are becoming whole.  I love the family we have become, and the family You are still making us into.  We all are meant to be here together to help each other.  We all love You, God, and that is all we need to have in common.  Thank You so much! I love this family I have.  I know we will be a family forever! I wouldn’t ever ask for anyone different to be here.