For the past 12 or so hours I have written and re-written every event that has happened over the past month, but to be honest at this moment none of those events matter in my heart. The one thing that keeps ringing throughout my head is that God is so so good.
One of the many things I absolutely love about my team is that when it's needed most all we ever have really needed is God and a guitar. Tonight as our last night in the hostel comes to an end all we had was God and the guitar. We could have been singing any random song, maybe even "Before he cheats" by Carrie Underwood, and anybody and everybody that walked by our room would have known that God is present. And he's been present this entire month we've been on the field.
This past month has not only been exciting and adventurous, but it has moved me so much further in my faith then I could have ever imagined. God has spoken to me and over me. He's shown himself within other people and in the community in which I was living. But the one thing that God kept telling me over and over again is that I need to be patient. Patient in the one area of my life that I have the hardest time letting him control. And that's my future.
The question I continually ask God is what my degree should be. God, is what I'm going to school for actually what I should be pursuing? And the only thing God would tell me is be patient. That when I finally let go and let God, when I open my heart and eyes, he will plant his desire in me.
I'm not sure exactly what that means. I know that right now, right were I am (even in this hostel as a mosquito is biting my leg) this is where I'm supposed to be. Spreading his word. Being an ambassador of Christ. Telling people that God is so so good. And signing his praise… with God and a guitar.
