I can’t say how many times in my life I’ve thought to myself: God, if you would just show me a miracle, then I would believe. I listen to the doubt in my head as i pray for miracles half heartedly, giving myself room to excuse God if He doesn’t follow through. During this trip I’ve seen miracles. But none greater than the miracle I overlook daily.
I’ve realised something. When we approach God saying, “then I would believe” the sad thing is, God knows we wouldn’t. After Jesus died many people, like myself, would’ve doubted that He would rise again. Though the even greater doubt came at the ressurection. Still some did not believe.
Every day we are faced with God and we find ourselves needing something more in order to justify our doubt. But I believe there is a reason why God doesn’t answer our doubts with miracles. The doubt I’ve faced after facing miracles has been even more destructive than anything I’ve ever faced pleading doutingly for a sign.
Faith in God is a choice, a choice that we must pray to God for strength in. But it doesn’t come from miracles or any fleshly encounter with God.
Every day we wake up to creation. Our existence is possibly the greatest miracle of all time. The Sun, The Moon, The stars, galaxies, the frogs. Look up in the sky at night. Its crazy its amazing. Still we may choose not to believe.
Our God is huge, powerful and incomprehendible. I’ve seen his miracles, the same miracles you see everyday and some that our different as well. But there is none of these that I could tell you to strengthen your faith in God. Still you will believe or not believe.
I pray for a greater faith that comes from God. I come to Him with an honest expression of my doubts, not a disguised faith. And I pray that God would work miracles in my heart that are unseen. That I may no longer depend on moved mountains or faith healings to believe. That my faith might heal and move mountains.
