April 22, 2012
In 17 days I will be at home. Not just in America but actually at home. This time last year I remember getting ready for exams, from there the semester always FLIES by. This is out of control. In 27 days I will be leaving for camp. I will be seeing long lost friends for the first time in almost a year. I am so blessed to not feel far from them at all. In about 20 days I will see Kaitlyn and Drew. In 17 days I will hug the CRAP out of Sydney. In 17 days I will cry when I see my mom and dad and I will laugh at my sisters every word. In 27 days I start over with a new community. New growth. New trust. New faces. In 35 days I will start ministry again with these people. In 17 days I will say some of my hardest goodbyes of my life. I do not want to leave my family. In 15 days I will leave the place that changed me. In 9 days I will have to say goodbye to kids who have already stolen my heart. When you have not showered for 29 days the weight of how quickly this time goes by is a hard reality. We are working in a tangible time frame. In 17 days I will realize to what extent life didn’t stop just because I was gone. In 16 days I will be able to reach anyone with the touch of a button. In 18 days I will cry, I know I will. But most importantly, in 17 days I will have a decision to make. What is my life going to look like? Saying that it will be different and living it out are two totally different things. And with the power of fire inside of me I can say with confidence that things WILL be different. I will be unrecognizable, unraveled and undignified. Even more that I already am, finally I will be able to live that out as an example to those around me in the place where my heart is,home. The place it is hardest to live it out. In 17 days I will encounter one of the hardest challenges yet. I have decided to follow Jesus. NO TURNING BACK.
