Fully Alive

I never thought of this before. God wants us to live life and live it to the full. And the life He breathes into us isn't meant to be contained- it is meant to be channeled out. In actually contemplating this, these are powerful words. My team leader, Elizabeth, has been challenging me with the questions of 'What makes you come alive? What keeps you up at night and wakes you up in the morning? What is your passion?' She was referring to God-given convictions. She was referring to the deep-seeded desires that He has placed upon my heart. I realized that I need to take these questions to God because He knows my heart better than I do.

I can't say that it was ever consciously a deep desire of mine to go on a missions trip to Africa (I have actually always wanted to go to Cambodia and Thailand). But He knew that this is where I needed to be. He knew that this would be the right time and place (and right people) to challenge me, teach me, and guide me. He knew that through complete faith in Him, people would be physically healed as we prayed over them. He knew already who would accept Christ and who wouldn't. And He knew that by being here, He would only be making me stronger in this spiritual battle.

I read a quote the other day- "While it is sometimes possible to declare one's neutrality in a military conflict, it is not possible to do so in the overarching spiritual war engulfing this planet."
This is the truth that keeps me up at night and consumes my thoughts in the morning. Speaking life over people and proclaiming the gospel makes me alive. This is only more accentuated as I am on 'the field' living every waking moment for Christ. My passion will always be to let God work through me in order to tell people about the ultimate gift of Jesus' self-sacrificing love- to let them hear and know of His uncomprehendable grace. And I do not write these worlds lightly. But I can't say that I know the specific convictions, passions, and desires God has for me yet. I know that it is a deep-seeded desire of mine to one day marry a man of God and start a family. But until then, I am hoping that God will help me answer the questions Elizabeth presented to me so that I can continue forward after Africa, living life to the fullest in Christ. Africa is not the end; it is only the beginning. I have seen more that ever that through Christ, I am and always will be fully alive.