……..This is a little peak into my journal. But, just a little explanation before I let you read it. Declarations of who I am and who God is have been huge. Defining absolutes has been essential to holding fast to the truth while I'm here. Also, I write my journal to God, so these are my private thoughts; don't judge =)
Monday, October 15th
…Alot of the time I want a normal healthy meal, time to tan, and an exhausting, mind-clearing workout. But right now, I'm craving a cold rainy day. Boots, jeans, and a hot coffee. Spending time by a fire pondering life and love. I'm dreaming of this past winter. Red beanie. No guys in sight. Oh, to have that but with You, Daddy. The idea makes me excited for home.
Let me be content in the here and now. Africa. 10:33 pm. Exhausted. No guys. Unsure future. 13 sisters. Its all in my story. And this story has a happy ending.
My story has a happy ending.
Fairytales are real; I'm living one.
I'm living a fairytale life. I'm a princess. My prince rescued me. My Daddy cherishes me. I'm beautiful. I'm free. I'm a danger to evil. I'm a fighter.
I told a friend of mine that fairytales are rubbish. I didn't know what I was saying. I'm living in one; it's the most complex, lengthy tale ever told, penned by the maker of the universe. The princess is found, after a hard life believing she was nothing. Her prince fought evil off, for they knew her value, and won. He brought her back to her Father, the King. There are wars, attacks on her, sneaky people with sneaky thoughts. Through it all, she fights and resists the evil, while her Papa and prince fight on her behalf.
Its a fairytale. It's a truth that needs to be believed. Sin makes people say its an unrealistic view. Of course there's evil in the world. It doesn't make the princess any less royal, the prince any less dashing and selfless or the King any less loving. Our perception of God and His love determines our beliefs. I misjudged his love and felt certain something as happy and errorless as a fairytale would never happen to me. I was a 'realist'. That story was too good to be true. No. That's just how good God is. He gives me a fantastic world to live in, and an intense story to live out. What more could I ask for?
So next time you wonder what you're doing with your life and need some hope, remember that you are royalty. You have an adventurous life planned out for you. You will always succeed when you trust God. "The heart set to do the Father's will need never fear defeat. Does it make sense to believe that the Shepherd cares less about getting His sheep where He wants them, than the sheep care about getting there?" (Elisabeth Elliot) Live with the story in mind.
You live in a real fairytale.
