Time to start livin’
So it's our 5th week in Senga Bay, Malawi and man oh man has it been a journey.
What I'm feeling at this point in Malawi is something that I can maybe relate to something someone who has had a near-death experience might feel. Except I didn't need a near-death experience. I needed Kenya, Tanzania, and Malawi. I needed Africa. I needed Jesus.
Malawi has been earth-shattering for me. I remember back in Tanzania I prayed about a change in me. Of course I already knew I was very different after my Kenyan experience in the bush but i wanted MORE.
I was basically begging God to show me some kind of super duper obvious change in me.
Then God gave me Malawi.
He gave me a community beyond anything I could IMAGINE.
He gave me South Africans hosts who have impacted my life spiritually and emotionally like nothing I can describe
He gave me the biggest lake in Africa (Lake Malawi) right outside my door open to gaze upon at any time of day
He gave me a look at what true appreciation means
He gave me worship nights that I can't compare to anything
He gave me the best African cooks in all of Malawi
He gave me village kids that greet me by name everyday and can melt your heart with one smile
He gave me one brick room to share with all 13 of my sisters
He gave me answered prayers.
He gave me change.
The change I so desperately prayed for has come and it's come in two different forms -a form of peace and a form of joy.
Pure, white, quiet, soft, content, PEACE and overwhelming, laughing, smiling, singing, uncontainable JOY!
The peace God has enabled me to make with my life is indescribable. It feels like there is this flowing energy of contentment flowing through my body. Even physically I breath easier..like my body recognizes my internal peace and wants in on it. I have made peace with who I am. I can breath easy knowing that I can relax and let God take me on the path of life that he wants. I've never been so ready to start living with confidence that God truly is guiding my life and I'm not alone on this journey.
As far as the loud Joy that has recently made a presence in my life I have never been so excited to fully embrace this gift of uncontainable laughter and understanding of the amazingness of life.
God has awoken this energy in me that just makes me want to run and shout and scream out at how happy I am with being ME and being alive.
There is this happiness that just wants to spill out of me at all times. And the best part is that I know this joy is here to stay. I know that the joy my heart feels when 11-year old African Hope runs to me from his village is something that I can feel when I am brushing my teeth at home.
I needed Malawi to show me what my heart is capable of and now that God opened my eyes I am confident that I will never look at happiness the same way.
For the first time in my life I am excited for whatever God has for me coming up. I mean like WHATEVER. I don't care what anyone thinks about me or my decisions and trust me- that's a big step in itself. I'm just ready to start living with the peace and joy that God has put in me.
So as of now I can confidently say that these last 3 and a half months have been the most life-changing months of my entire life. Everyday before I pray I say thank you …THANK YOU to God for getting me here. He knew what I needed and he delivered.
So excited to get back to the states and watch the changes that had been made in me be put into action.
Get ready America, Abby Felts is comin' home!
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