Have I only been away for 12 days,
what seems like a long time also seems so short. I don’t yet know
everything about my team; our fears, our passions, our view of social
injustice of how we perceive God. It’s not like the blind leading the
blind though, it’s more like full reliance on God who hands
everything to us as we need it, not as we want it.
I’m quite overwhelmed with
satisfaction- satisfied with how quickly God is wrecking this team
for His Kingdom, satisfaction with new friends, satisfaction with new
heart breaks because it gives me more hope and feeling completely
satisfied with how much the Father loves me and who He says I am.
I think the past season of my life
that’s what I was looking for. I longed for community and longed to
bring hope to the hopeless and yet the whole time I was desired life
to be spoken into me- I was really just waiting to be satisfied in
who He says I am.
Allowing God to relay the message of
who I am- to me, has really set me up to declare to others, who God
says He is and how He views them. I think that’s a lot of what God
has for me in this season, to step in and really show me how He is my
Father. In doing that, I feel like He’s always showing me how to
nurture, to love and to be so gentle and patient.
I’ve been called to lead, in a very
different way than most and every time God presents a new opportunity
to lead it requires more of myself. More dying to myself, more
boldness, more courage, more love, more patience, more passion. More
passion, well passion isn’t something I’m lacking but pray Jesus
shows me how to reflect passion like He did when he encountered
everyone. Not just in one on one settings (which is a setting I love)
but to a group, to a body, spur of the moment pour out the passion He
continues to put on my heart.
I’m thankful for how much passion I
have, how much love is inside me for people my age, broken people,
people living in poverty. Oh thank you Jesus for teaching me this in
Africa away from all comfort. You know best which gives me confidence
as I submit to Your will and all of Your ways.
