Tanzania is quite the place.
Being the only country out of the 3 on our expedition that I have not been too, I was nervous and excited, but unsure of what to expect.
To be honest, the first week was ROUGH.
Not only was I sick (all is good now, praise Jesus!) and not only did we experience some crazy travel days (TIA!) but I was walking into a very dark country, knowing I spiritually was not where I needed to be.
The last week in Malawi I felt something change. Unfortunately it was not a good change. Rather than continuing to trek through my desert, I hit a big ole’ brick wall. And I couldn’t seem to move.
This last week I have been in a place where I was ready to give up. I wasn’t getting anything from God (or so I thought) and I felt dry, empty. It was physically, emotionally and mentally exhausting.
And then, I opened my eyes.
It doesn’t matter that I don’t think I’m ready. Prepared. Able to make a difference.
Because, the thing is, I can’t do any of this on my own. It’s ALL God!
And even in this desert place, He is working on me. And even more amazing, He is working THROUGH me. It can be as simple as the hug I gave the child that has no mother or father. The time I spent playing a clapping game with some of the kids at the church. The prayers over a woman who had pain in her stomach, and was healed.
This week I chose to walk around that wall. I did a 180 degree spin, and just started going! That wall is no longer my obstacle.
And hey, who knows, maybe I am walking in the right direction this time.
“He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12:9
